NicceDog and Odessa 2009
Enduring, amorphous wandering
Shifted paradigms
Tearless eyes that sting and burn
A huge fear lump stuck in your throat
Unstoppable hiccups…a sneeze that stalls…an unreachable itch
An undilating cervix
A permanent pimple planted on the middle of your face
Macular degeneration of your soul
Dementia of your mood
Total aphasia
Entering the Witness Protection Program
Losing your identity, dissolving all your connections
Acting in a “changing places” movie
Living someone else’s life
Wearing borrowed clothes; one size fits all but nothing really fits
Attacked by a computer virus
An extended electrical outage
“12:00” blinking permanently on the face of your VCR
A buzzing alarm clock just beyond reach
Broken routines, lost keys
Breakfast at midnight, sleep at noon
Misplacing the remote control
Locking yourself out, locking yourself in
Paging yourself to find where you are
Breaking up, static on the line, cellular not digital
Wearing someone else’s eyeglasses
An out of focus lens, a mistracking VCR
A 45 rpm record played at 78 speed
Someone lowering the volume, dimming the lights
Realizing “settled” is a myth
Possibilities flashing across your mind, dissolving in its spaces
A nagging sense of “never”
Wondering when this timeless intermission will end
Finishing what you thought was the appetizer and learning it was dessert
Living with “how it was” when it wasn’t how you wanted it
Acknowledging what can NEVER happen
Recognizing the unfixable, the unreturnable, the expired
Unplugged wires…last year’s Christmas lights, tangled and mangled
Dots that won’t connect
Permanent pauses…stalled suspensions
No escalator step rising up when you need it
No one to finish your sentences…to remember the forgotten…
to ask “how was your day?”
(by mom)
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Alison